Stressed Out

Yesterday I was driving on Interstate 79 South. I was on my way to the dental specialist in Robinson Township. I was thanking God that the directions were simple and the office would be easy to find. I was listening to KLove radio, a really nice Christian station. The closer I got to Robinson, the more uptight I felt. I was definitely out of my comfort zone. And, the heavier the traffic got, the more stressed I felt. And, all at once all the stress of the last few months hit me. I wanted to pull over and just sit and cry. I kept thinking about all the driving I had done during the last few months, in all kinds of weather and how many times I spoke in churches and other venues and how long I have been here and not in Ghana and how long it takes a dental implant from start to finish and how hard waiting is and now I have to go to a voice specialist and I have to drive fron Erie to Pittsburgh to see the voice specialist and what about changing my tickets and I miss my kids and I miss my home and did I ever mention that it is COLD and SNOWY here and...

 

So, I finally arrived at the dental office. I was early, so, I checked email, etc. Then, when I had my appointment, I found out my implant is healing nicely. THANK YOU, JESUS! So, I call the travel service to change my tickets and the tickets that were previously available weren't anymore. My choices were for a flight a few days before the crown will be placed in my mouth or March 3rd. Now, I am leaving for Ghana even later than planned, March 3rd! I could hardly stand the ache in my heart. I want to go home. I want to see my kids. I want to sleep in my own bed. I want to...

 

Notice anything wrong here? It's all I and my and me and mine. And, in reality, it's not about I and my and me and mine. It's all about God and living a life that reflects Him and glorifies Him and leads people to Jesus. My mindset yesterday failed in many ways. I know that God has plans for my time here. Five years ago, I needed to take voice lessons to strengthen my vocal chords. Maybe that has to happen again. Maybe there is something else He wants me to do. Who knows? Not me. Obviously, I am not in charge here, He is.

 

Lord, forgive me for not placing my trust in You. Forgive me for getting stressed out and not turning to You right from the beginning. Help me to accept these things that I cannot change. Thank You, that I am in a place where specialised medical care is available. Thank You for a vehicle to drive. Thank You for providing for me while I am in "Your Waiting Room." Help me to see You in all circumstances. May I glorify You in all things. Lord, Just like I prayed four days ago..."I am no longer my own but Thine..." In Your Son,Jesus' name I pray, amen and amen!